For you, a thousand times over.

"Even the bluest of skies have seemed gray

The whitest clouds have seemed gloomy

Rain clouds seem more dreary..."

- Looking At Life Though Tinted Lenses

So Trav just left. I had a good day overall. I'd say.

I woke up early to get to school at 8 so I could go driving. I did relatively well. After I drove Jess and I were in the back seat and we were trying to talk to this kid, Issac, who drives with us. He's a senior but he's always really quiet. We got him to talk finally, I told him I wanted to hear what his story was, he just gave me this odd look. Oh well, I'm used to it by now hah. Class wasn't quite as bad as usual. I didn't daydream, I forced myself to pay attention, although I still can't recall what we did in class.

After class I went home and packed a bag and did laundry then I went to Travs for a bit to hang out before frisbee. Frisbee was majorly intense today. I think I played really well. They kept making me block Shane which was absolutely hilarious because he's like twice my height and I was still blocking him really well. Nobody would throw the disc to him and everytime I had to block him he'd switch off from me or swear. Later, after he switched teams he said "You blocking Franklin was a bad idea, much like with you blocking me it just doesnt work out well." and then Trav said "Um, I believe she did a fantastic job blocking you. You didn't really ever get the disc." Everybody was just like "Wow Shane, you're being blocked intensly by a girl who's only 5 feet tall." He was really aggitated.

We played for 3 hours straight. My legs are in so much pain, even still. We didn't get done till like 8:40. Then Trav and I walked downtown and got Esperontos and then we went and collapsed in the park. We finally got up because it was too buggy. We were having issues walking and seeing cause we were just so dehydrated and tired. We got icecream and Trav came back to my house and we watched Kite Runner and had milkshakes.

The movie was really good. I loved it. There were a couple really emotional moments that kind of got to me. Like the quote, "For you, a thousand times over." I think I may read the book. I wanted to before but I just never got around to it.

I brought up Aaron to Trav at one point. I told him how I was worrying about him. And how he said he should be gone by Sunday. I even told him that I don't know what I'd do if I lost him. he said "Be sad?" I said "Actually I'd probobly be intensly depressed." We kind of strayed off that and changed the subject after we talked about him for a little longer.

I really love the point that Trav and my relationship has gotten to. We're really really good friends. Like, purely good friends. I love hanging out with him and I can trust him with a lot. I'm glad we're such good friends.

I have a lot on my mind lately. I've been forcing myself to concentrate on things and distracting myself. But, i still realize that there's something Aarons not telling me. I wish he would. This distance is going to make it even harder, we can't afford to be distant like this.

My thoughts are all jumped and a mess. I can't concentrate right now on writing even. Especially when my legs hurt. I'm going to go pass out in my bed. Im so happy i dont have to wake up and drive tomorrow, I get to sleep a little longer.