"Nobody, not even the rain, has such small hands."

here is the deepest secret nobody knows

(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows

higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

- e. e. cummings

So, currently on my mind is Shorty. He is an odd one, but I guess that's why we're such good friends. We've gotten to the point where he knows me well enough that he can tell when I'm lying, when somethings wrong, all of that. His words (paraphrased of course) were something along the lines of...

"Because we've all kind of got rooms, and when we talk like this it's kind of like you let me into your room when you shut everyone else out."

And it kind of got me thinking, I guess I really do share a lot with him. It's interesting. Him and I have really become good friends, I guess, I do let him into my room.

And then today, when i was talking to him, he felt the need to get into this detail. Heres the conversation (pretty much)

"Aw now I feel special" (Me)
"You should always. I don't get it." (Shorty)
"?" (Me)
"Do you think you're sexy? Honestly?" (Shorty)
"No." (Me)
"Why not?"(Shorty)
"I dunno. I just don't." (Me)
"See, that's weird. 'Cause a lot of people do, including myself. You are. Now get it, and use it." (Shorty)
"Haha"(Me)
"It's not funny"(Shorty)
"Thanks Shorty." (Me)
"Don't worry about it." (Shorty)

And then we just went on to how I told him about my conversation with my sister, and how she said almost the same thing, except she said beautiful. She, also, said that she didn't know why I didn't see it. I duno, I guess I'm just weird like that. But Shorty's always got compliments for me. He's sweet.

So, another thing on my mind is that Aaron's been a tad m.i.a. the last few days. Haven't really gotten the chance to talk to him. I guess it's just beause he's busy though. I mean, it's not like he's doing nothing over there. Hopefully I'll get a chance to talk to him tomorrow. And I won't be in a bad mood either. I'll make sure of it.

So I've been watching this show, Death Note, on Youtube. It's pretty good, I like it so far. I'm up to episode 10 right now. I'm gonna keep watching until they don't have any more online. They may still have it on t.v. I can always check tomorrow, since I don't even have drivers-ed and it's supposed to be rainy. I could always record it. Who knows, I found out they started up Scare Tactics again. That was a funny show.

So, Travis comes home in a week. And Shorty comes home on the 8th. So, I should be very busy once they both get back. Apparently Breaking Dawn gets shipped ot me on the 4th, so I'll spend a day reading that. Maybe I'll re-read the other three books before I get the new one, just to make sure I have everything down pat that's happened and is going on (that's my story and I'm sticking to it.) And then once I read those, I'll read Breaking Dawn, and then I can read The Host. I still need to finish 1984. Maybe I should get on top of that.

Anyways, I'll be busy hanging out with Travis and Shorty once they get back. So, basically no downtime for a while. Travis leaves after a week I think he said, so, then I'll just have to hang out with Shorty. I don't mind that. I have fun when I hang out with him. Two of my good friends, I'm sure we'll find something to do. Hopefully it stops raining like a monsoons coming soon. I still have to do that photo shoot thing with Stacia and I would like to be able to leave my house without having to worry that I won't be able to get home.

Anyways, it's about 2:21 in the morning now. I think I should try to get some sleep. I just ate half a thing of peanutbutter fudge, it was absolutely delicious.