"It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye."

"Sometimes knowing hurts more" but then again... maybe it's the reality of knowing. Because once you know, you can't deny it. One you hear those words you can't go back in time and hope they're unsaid. I think I've come to the realization that sometimes, to see things clearly, you have to go into dark waters, go as deep as you can into the abyss. That's where the truth comes, after you've gone through hell.

I know I love Aaron with all my heart. But I don't know if I can do this anymore. I miss him so much and I've tried to wait because I know he's perfect in my eyes, he's my knight in shining armor. But he's my knight who I can't have. Who's the one who decided that the person I had to fall in love with someone who I could never have?

Steve absolutely hates me and its starting to wear on me. He keeps telling people Im easy and just being an overall jerk. I tried to talk to Zac about it and he just kinda laughs. I guess he doesn't understand that it's starting to really bother me. I've become so frustrated with everything that I just broke down and started crying. Yea, talk about stressful.

I like Zac. I know that, but apparently Steve said to Kara that he doesnt like me anymore. Which made me feel sad. I have no idea if it's true or not. I hung out with him today and had a lot of fun. After all the adventures with everybody we walked to the park and layed in the grass. I ended up kissing him (after a lot of coaxing from him haha) then he walked me back to CVS where I had to meet my mom.