"It's funny how you can have all the right motives, and still do all the wrong things."

Okay. So, I'm sick of these horrible ups and downs in my relationship with Aaron. One second we're doing great, having conversations on the phone and all that, talking. And then the next he barely talks to me at all, and seems distant and all that. I'm sick of it. I'm going to take all my feelings and shove them in my pocket. No more. Our friendship is more important.

Today he told me that I remind him of Hannah. And that talking to me made him think of her. Thinking of her makes him sad. But he said it's....good? I just don't really understand. I wish I did because the way he said it makes me think he was basically saying that I remind him of her, which makes him sad.

I just don't really know what the hell is going on right now. I hung out with Conor, Jack and Jenna today. That was a lot of fun. I met the three of them in the park at 2ish. We threw the frisbee around for a bit then walked to Ben & Jerry's because it was so hot, we all got Strawberry Lemonade smoothies and sat on the benches and talked. Then we walked back to the park and Jenna and Jack climbed a tree while Conor and I hung around on the ground. He decided it would be funny to slap my ass. But he missed, ouch. Haha so I hit him back. He said to me "So, how do you think it's going for Jack? Think he's scoring some good points?" I said yes. I think that Jenna and jack are going to date eventually.

So then, Conor decides to try to prove he can take me down, and he got me on the ground and I dunno, it was...odd? I dunno. But it was funny. then Jack and Jenna came over and we sat on the grass talking for a bit, then decided to move to the shade. We all talked some more, jack left and the three of us moved over to the benches in the shade. Conor asked Jenna if she was going to date Jack, or atleast what the situation was. She said she wanted to date him, but just not at that moment. Then Conor continued to talk about Lily. I'm really sick of hearing about her at this point. But, whatever.